Alot,
but not very much.
Im working at Dalia now,
Called "Bonnies" by those who are ignorent.
Wednesday, Saterday mornings and Sunday night.
Not very many days atm, but when the new girl get inevitably fired,
Ill have more days.
Sally is going to start working there some, sometime soon.
Ive been saving a little bit, of my little paychecks.
Exciting.
Working my way towards my own place.
That dear reader,
IS actually exciting.
Going out on weekends that I can afford.
Cant dance, but I absolutely love too.
When Im drunk though, I dont care at all.
Moderation is good.
I havent become a crack whore,
Havent slept with any strange dudes.
I am however interested in this guy,
my sisters "brother,"
but not actually related.
I refuse to make a thing of it though,
no relationships for me.
Im not interested in those in the least bit.
My last was too much,
I hate having to share the past,
which you have to do with new people.
Id rather be single.
My last relationship caught me off guard.
Had to know everything.
Somethings are better left unsaid,
and unthought of.
He was always making me think about myself and I do just fine NOT doing that.
Im actually a perdy peppy person,
just dont get too close to things that are ment to be forgotten and left alone.
Its not hiding anything, just not displaying them.
I dunno, its confusing.
I have high hopes for the future,
I hope that everyone around me is doing good.
I want nothing but happiness to everyone.
Zach deserves to be happy more than anyone else I know,
and Im excited that he seems to be doing nicely.
Life goes on.
Time flows by.
Its all good.
About Me
- Lana
- Not worth even getting to know. I have a very bland personality. If your a male run. If your a female, fuck off. I have no time to bother with friends even anymore. If I keep to myself, I cant hurt anyone.
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And you're the reason, I've become a whore. To spend my next 4-20 years single, and yet never be alone.
I'm going to Cali for a week to get some stuff off my shoulders. AndrewJ is going to come with me. Then I go to basic. I won't write here or there any more after I leave.
Hope you do better than I will. Considering me, that shouldn't be too hard for someone like you.
For the Record:
1. It was Angela.
2. I didn't fuck anyone.
3. Stop flattering yourself, you're the least of my problems right now.
You can take anything I say to you, how ever you want. I'm done explaining the simple shit to you.
I leave in 16 days, and then you will be the last thing on my mind.
Also, Don't tell me to relax. Look where 'that' got you in the first place.
You just don't get it. Nor will you ever. I'm not mad. I'm over you. I'm above and beyond you.
I have and am STILL Moving forward.
Not BECAUSE of you, or for you, but for me, because I made the decision before we got back together.
Don't act like you're better than me, and don't act like you didn't do anything. I'm leaving in 2 weeks no matter what you have to say. I gave you a choice to be in my life, and you walked the other way. I'm not mad at you, I'm just a little different because of you.
Get over yourself. Thanks you and good night.
PS: I hope you get your shit together hon. NY might be a better place for you.
Why are you so hostile?
I haven't even done anything to you.
If anyone should be mad, it should be me. I just wanted to let you know how I was and you sitting here telling me to move on and stop blaming you. I don't blame you, even if you are the reason.
I'd rather you worry about yourself rather than trying to make things hard for me.
I saw it. I was just not replying.
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